- A broken heart that can never be mend....

Lost, confused, depressed, sad, emo, stressed..... And the list juz goes on and on... Thats exactly my expression today and have been since few days back.. Dun feel like carrying on in life.. How I wish I could juz end my life now......

I guess.. Life will juz be hell from now on.. I guess I have to go through this alone.. Look left and right... No one in sight.. I see u standing there.. Will u be there for me..?? I really hope so...

I never thought things will end up this way.. Tell me.. Who wants live a life full of sorrows and hell... Haiz.. But I guess this is juz my fate.. Life certaintly is unfair.. But everything happens for a reason.. I wonder wat the reason is.. If it was to end like this, then why did God lead me to u in the first place.. I really am lost.. As much as u dun want to hurt me, I dun want to hurt u too... It hurts to see u cry and shed even a single tear or even see tht frown on your face... ):
And u were never cruel to me.. I know ultimately I cant have it all... Yes.. I have accepted that fact alr.. But please dun say all those things.. Alright...?? It ain't making things easy for me.. And dun be afraid to hurt me.. I've been through so much till I cant feel a lot of pain anymore... My life is all abt pain..
And making use of me..? Rely on me..? To me, its not alright.. I'm more than happy to help.. So never think tht u are making use of me.. Its I want to help u... So PLEASE dun ever think that its making use of me.. I understand tht u dun want to hurt me.. Not even a single drop.. Yes.. I truly understand.. Tell me.. Who would want to hurt their friend...?

So I guess now its me against the world... Haiz.. Sad.. But I have to face it.. I duno if I have the strength but no matter wat.. I have to go through it... I'll always be by ur side no matter how bad the situation gets.. Now... Will u be there for me too..?? Will you..? Or will u juz walk away like how so many of them did..? I duno.. But it will definitely hurt if u walk away now... I can tell you it will scar me for life... Haiz.. ):

As my life continues... I only drown deeper and deeper into my own tears.. Somehow someday.. I guess I will juz drown in my tears and disappear forever... I'm sorry for everything.. I know this is definitely not enough... I really duno wat to do.. All the odds are against me.. From the bottom of my heart, I'M SORRY for everything.... Hope u accept this sincere apology of mine..